Rant & Raves

People were chatting somewhere, but he couldn’t hear what they were saying. The laptop screen was showing activities from the chat line, but he couldn’t read a single word. The phone was ringing but he didn’t notice it. His eyes were transfixed on the laptop screen, but not a single word went into his eye. His mind was racing quickly, but it was also adrift to no where in particular.

He had been turned down, not by people, but by fate and life.

He felt the deep and constant disappointment in fate and life, and the über sadness for facing the cruel reality.

Imagine being told that his lifelong dream was just something gluttony. Imagine the constant turned down by life and fate that his lifelong dream was just inches away but it constantly escaped his finger tips. Then, when he turned to the one person whom is most important to him, he was told to abandon the dream and do something he has hated since decades ago.

And he thought the meaning of life was to fulfill one’s dream and live life to the fullest.

With every passing moment, he felt that his dream was slipping further away from him. He tried very hard to reel it back, to grasp it, to hold it, and to accomplish it. But the dream that he had since he was young kept slipping further and further away.

He has been living under chronic depression. He longed for a human touch, like a hug, a pat on the shoulder, or a kiss on the forehead. Unfortunately, he hasn’t been getting any form of human touch from the most important people in his life.

He felt abandoned, when he needed the emotional support the most. He felt unloved, when he was told that his dream were gluttony. He felt disappointed that his desire to be hugged did not come. He felt upset, when he was facing some very difficult moment in his life and that was when the most important person in his life decided to push him away, to live a separate life.

He felt deserted and lonely because there was no one he could talk to about his dreams and about his disappointment. He could be surrounded by a million people, but he felt that he was the only person alive in the world to understand the constant struggle, emotionally and physically, and the mixed feelings he had.

Of all things, he didn’t feel upset or mad. In fact, he had no more energy left in him to have any feelings. He was numb from all the news that he had been getting.

Sexual satisfaction is important for a person’s emotional and physical state. It is proven, scientifically, that a volcanic orgasmic rupture-like ejaculation will release a form of chemical in the body to make that person feel relax and relieve. In other words, it will make a person happy.

But he didn’t need the sexual intercourse, and even if he did, he could always go to some prostitute house for a quick fix or some night club to hunt for a no-commitment one night stand. No, what he needed the most, at that particular moment, was just a simple hug to feel better.

Just a simple desire, but one that is the hardest to accomplish.

A hug will go a long way, but he is a long way from being hugged.