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14
Aug

my role

By Adrian 3 Comments
Categories: observation

Angels sent me here to be your rest area, so you can stop and rest when you are tired on your life journey. Angels sent me here to be your lighthouse, so that I can show you the way when you are completely lost in the utter darkness. Angels send me away when you don’t need me anymore.

There is an old saying that everyone that comes into our lives serves a purpose, a role, and when the purpose or role is fulfilled, they will disappear from our lives until the next time. Some of them stay longer, and some of them don’t. Ultimately, the end result is the same; they will disappear while new people will come into our lives to fulfill their purposes, their roles.

I am not referring the roles or purposes as the intention to be used. I am referring to the God (whichever God you are serving) intended way for us to come to this world, know the people that we know, cross-path with the people that don’t stay on for too long. That’s the roles and purposes that I am referring to.

Sometimes I would sit down, a bottle of ice-cold beer in hand, and I flashback on the people that I have met in my life. Sometimes I would wonder what was my purpose, the role that I was playing, in their lives and what was the thing that I needed to do to fulfill my “responsibilities”. Sometimes I know the answers, but sometimes I don’t. Sometimes I would wonder what were their roles or responsibilities when they appear in my life. Were they there to teach me lessons, to help me, to make me realize what kind of person I am, to make me realize what kind of person I want to be, and to make me realize what kind of girl(s) I want in life to make me truly happy?

When I look back to my previous experience, I noticed that sometimes I would cross path with someone, a complete stranger, and we would become friends. Then most often than not, they were someone troubled by life and I was there to give support, advices, helps, in whatever means I can provide. Then, when they recovered, they move on, and we lost touch, and that’s about it. So the sole purpose of me appearing in their lives, crossing the path with them, was just to help them out?

And this happened not only once but many times.

Somehow I sense that this is happening, right at this moment, that my new role is to give a helping hand and once things are done, once my “responsibilities” are fulfilled, both of us will move on to our intended path to continue our life journey.

On the other hand, her purpose is to help me to get over something that has been bothering me, realizing that I am still capable of having feelings for someone, and finally revealing the break-up to my family.

22
Jul

TV Commercial Shooting

By Adrian 3 Comments
Categories: about me, friends and observation

Let me clarify one thing first; I did not act in any TV commercial so you don’t have to sit in front of the TV to wait for my appearance, ok?

The other day a friend of mine called for dinner, so I went. She later told me, during dinner, that she was going to Pavillion for a TV Commercial shooting (its her work), so I went to Pavillion in the middle of the night to company her.

One way to describe it; interesting.

First of all, the setting up itself took about 2 hours (and its not a big set up, mind you). The lighting was adjusted again and again, the crew members running around to ensure that stage is as required by the producers and director, and then the choreographer was busy giving last minute instruction to ensure the artists and talents were doing the right move.

Then, the camera started to roll. One scene took at least few tries until everyone moved as a team and synchronized the move. Then the prop was removed and then another scene came up, and again, the choreographer was giving another last minute instruction whereas the director was in deep discussion with the camera man about the next scene while comparing to the storyboard.

Me? I was just standing around, watching in amusement and then not doing anything at all.

After 5 long hours, the director was agitated because they still had one more scene to go and yet it was about time to wrap as Pavillion management only allow them to shoot until 5 in the morning. He started using the megaphone to shout at the artists and talents, getting them to buckle up and be serious, and finally, it worked like magic!

Viola! It’s a wrap!

So what did I learn?

Apart from the fact that I can get a very flat ass (for sitting on the floor while waiting for my friend to be done), no matter how stupid the commercial looks (especially those late night commercials on TV), it actually requires a lot of effort and attention from the crew members (there were around 35 of them) and it wasn’t as simple as I had previously thought.

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PS: Sorry for the low quality picture. I was using my camera on my phone to capture those images. Furthermore, I don’t think its right for me to reveal which was the company that produced this TV Commercial and which commercial it is. I guess you will have to figure it out from the pictures :)

08
Jul

Love. Defined.

By Adrian 2 Comments
Categories: about me and observation

I just wish that you can find your true love

I looked at the tiny screen on my mobile, contemplating my course of action on responding to the text message. I pressed the “Reply” button, the cursor blinking, my fingers resting on the keypad, thinking how I should construct the sentence to tell her how I really feel.

Blink. Blink.

I am no longer in my late teens, so I don’t believe in true love anymore.

I pressed the “Close” button and exited the Messaging menu. Suddenly I realized that it is pointless for me to reply that message, and it is pointless for me to type out the way I look at relationship, or so-called love. She doesn’t need to understand my definition on this matter, but I am writing about it now because I feel like sharing my views and opinions with my readers.

I don’t believe in true love. Love is Disney Land, and also Hollywood. Yes, did you watch the cartoon by Disney when we were young, like Sleeping Beauty? Snow White? How about Cinderella? Let’s not forget my personal favorite, Mermaid, because it’s the only Disney cartoon that shows a girl half naked. Anyway, you get what I mean.

I don’t believe in “Forever” as 3 months is already a life time. When I heard someone said “I will love you forever”, I snickered and I believe the person saying it meant it at that time but he/she has no fucking idea how long is his/her definition of “forever”. More unfortunate is the fact that people like to be lied with, so when we hear our partner saying “I will love you forever”, we feel happy and we wanted to believe those words, hoping that forever is really forever.

So here’s my definition, and I am so going to Blockquote it.

Love, like marriage, is about finding a person whom you find comfort in, enjoying the company that this person provides, exploring and satisfying the basic needs of sex, appreciating this person’s good values, and most, and I do mean MOST, importantly, tolerating this person’s flaw.

There you have it, my definition of love, relationship, and marriage. You might agree with it, or disagree with it, but that’s just how I look at it, and how I generally feel about it.

After going through a few rough patches, meeting so many people, understanding how things work, observing the friends, people, society and everything, that’s how I see and understand this weird thing call Love. It is a feeling, and feeling is something very abstract that cannot be defined (well, you can define it but everyone has different definition) and documented. But the truth is, feelings do change from time to time, and my definition on love is about finding someone you are comfortable with, can laugh with the jokes, satisfied sexually, likes his/her great things, and most important, can tolerate and accept the flaws.

So how do you see love? How do you define it?

29
Jun

Do We Mean What We Say?

By Adrian 4 Comments
Categories: observation, people and rants and raves

This is the part 2 of the post about my observation here.

The problem with the society and people nowadays is that it is extremely difficult to find someone who will say what’s in their mind. And when we do, we think that person is too direct or something we crown the word “mean” on their foreheads.

What do I mean by “Do we mean what we say?” Let me give you some scenarios to work with.

Scenario #1:
Your girlfriend is cleaning the house, sweeping the floor, and mopping the floor (just assume that you two are living together). You offer help, but she says, “Oh honey, it’s okay. You have been working whole day so you rest.” or “It’s alright baby, I like to do house chores.” or “You enjoy your football game okay? I want to do it alone.”

What happen next? Before you know it, when you two have a fight, and she uses this against you, saying that you had never helped.
You: “But honey! You said you like to do house chores!”
She: “Ya right, as if I am your maid. Do you think everyone is born to like house chores? You sitting on your ass whole day so I got to do it!”
You: “But dear, you said it was okay because I was working whole day.”
She: “Fuck you. You think you are the only one working whole day? I don’t have to work?”
You: “But baby, you always ask me to continue my football game while you were cleaning.”
She: “Oh yeah, bastard. You can enjoy your football game, and what was I doing? Cleaning up your mess!”
You: “Why can’t you just say so? When I offered help, why can’t you just let me do it? Why can’t you speak your mind?”
She: “Guess what asshole! When I declined your help, why can’t you move your ass and take the initiative to help? Now I am speaking my mind!”

I don’t mean to be sexist, but guys normally mean YES when we say YES, and we mean what we say. Unfortunately, most of the time, women speaks some alien language. When they say they are fine, don’t trust them a bit. When they say NO, well, they mean YES most of the time. That’s why most of the time we have our arguments and that’s why sometimes that leads to serious misunderstanding.

Scenario #2:
Imagine that I bring my dog to your house. He poo right in front of your door, and I quickly asked for paper towel, plastic bag, and a mop. You might be kind enough to decline it and says, “Oh that’s fine. He’s just a lovely dog!” But the truth is, when you were cleaning that place up after my dog, you might be complaining to your wife, “that fucking bastard, his dog shit here and now I got to clean up his shit. What the fuck is he thinking?”

Now, this happened before (not to me of course, because I don’t fuck care what they say and I will just clean up whatever mess I made) and this is real life. Some people just try to be nice to the guests, but then inside their mind, they were cursing the guests and the guests’ families to hell and back. Why can’t you be genuine and let the guests clean up their own mess? Why act like a fucking gentleman and then later accuse them for not doing something right?

Of course, there are a few more scenarios that I can create, but let’s not make this post too long and I certainly not writing a thesis for human psychology.

So what’s your take? What do you think? Do you think that people in this society is telling enough truth and mean what they say? Or do you think you have met a lot of fake-face people?

27
Jun

Big Day with VIPs

By Adrian 3 Comments
Categories: observation and work

Yesterday I was at Nikko Hotel since 745am because my company was participating in BioMed 2008. We were busy setting up the booth and all that, and also testing all the audio/visual to ensure that our presentation (just showing some media files on a projector) is running smoothly.

Then we wait…

Yes, the featured guest of the day was YAB Dato’ Seri Abdullah Haji Ahmad Badawi, our Prime Minister of Malaysia. As usual, the stated time of arrival was 8:55am, and guess what! We waited until 9:15am, and he didn’t show up! He sent one of the representatives from the Prime Minister Department to represent him because he got the Parliament meeting on the 9th Malaysia Plan. Oh well, at least we could kick start the ceremonial thing to get the event officiated.

After the Malaysia anthem (mind you, the real one, not the famous one found on YouTube) and the prayers, the VIPs started to stand at the podium to give speeches and then some ceremonial mock cheque contribution. You know, the common thing, yada-yada and then finally, the VIPs were taking a tour to the event venue for visit. It’s important that the VIPs will spend at least 2 minutes on each booth to talk to the people, to show that they have genuine interest, yada-yada.

Now, I am not interest in telling the show-show thing and all that. The reason why I am writing this post is because I like to observe people and I saw something that pique my interest, hence I am sharing my observation with you.

I think all those VIPs should hire a fashion consultant, or dress consultant or something. I mean, they have the moolah! So might as well dress professionally. Okay, I have to give them the credit as their dress code is right; they wore a suit (meaning coat/blazer) with a properly knotted tie. But the coat is seriously oversized (or in some case, undersized!). I mean, can you imagine a VIP dressing a very loose coat, so oversized until they looked like they have a 48 inch waist instead of 40 inch?

And then some wore a squeeze-fit (note: not tight fit like those Hugo Boss) and the sleeves were like 2 inches short. Can you imagine a full size adult wearing a jacket that looked like he bought it when he was in highschool?

I am not asking everyone to wear a Hugo Boss or even a Armani suit. Well, I know I don’t buy those suit, not at this moment. I will only buy these suit on very special occasion, something once-of-a-life-time special thing, like my wedding (at least I hope its once of a life time). But they are the VIPs, so at least buy something that is fitting instead of super-sizing it like a Mega Mac (the 4 patties double Big Mac) or under-sizing it like Kids Menu. Can they fucking order a regular meal?

I might sound nit-picking, but when a person has to deal with public, being some big shot VIP and there is a need to meet people everyday, the least they could do is to dress properly, as in wearing a fitting suit. I know maybe they try to draw the impression that they are underpaid and being public servant, so they are wearing those lousy jackets. Come on! We are not stupid. Maybe we don’t know the exact amount that you are wearing, but living in a super nice multi-million dollar house, being chauffeured in a luxury limousine, and wearing branded watches like Panerai, JLG, Longines, and etc, don’t tell me you cannot afford a close fitting suit. By the way, they don’t charge extra if you buy the close fitting suit than your super-size-it jacket.

Oh well, that’s just my opinion. My suit is just a normal American brand suit and its not exactly new. At least it fits me well enough (and some even said that I look damn good in my suit!) and I know that the people I met that day won’t think that I look funny.

12
Jun

No more petrol price increase until year end?

By Adrian 0 Comments
Categories: observation and rants and raves

Today the The Star reported that Prime Minister announced no more petrol price increase until year end. [Read the report here]

At first, he said no marriage is on the horizon. The next thing we know, he married his current new wife.

At first he said not going to dissolve the parliament. The next thing we know, he set the nomination date to the following week.

At first he said not going to increase petrol price until August. The next thing we know, the price was increased on June 5th.

So why is it that this time round I don’t believe that the petrol price will be capped until year end?

08
May

Free R.P.K

By Adrian 0 Comments
Categories: observation and rants and raves

Raja Petra Kamarudin, the owner and editor of the infamous Malaysia Today blog has been detained by police under the sedition act [here] on Tuesday (May 6th) after publishing the blog post titled “Let’s send the Altantuya murderers to hell” on April 25th, 2008. A very interesting read, I might add.

Now, in the old Chinese saying, “Kill one to warn many” and believe it or not, Raja Petra Kamarudin, or commonly known as R.P.K (his initial) is the first Malaysian blogger to be charged under Malaysia Sedition Act. Is this the warning to the people (blogger) not to write the truth or facts? Oh, did I mention that our dear people up there said they lost the general election to the blog-space before? So is this the way to ensure that they will win the next general election by jailing all the bloggers? Of course not. I think it is a way to stop someone like R.P.K when they get too near to the truth about the whole Altantuya saga.

Or some people are speculating that the government is using R.P.K as a test case because the Sedition Act has never been applied to a blogger before, so they want to see if it works. If it does, I believe more people will be dragged into the Sedition Act very soon.

After R.P.K was detained, there is an uproar in the blogger community to demand for his release. There was even an online campaign to raise fund for his bail, and rumors has it that the online portal has raised more than RM20K. Furthermore, there will be a Candle Light Vigil at Dataran Merdeka at 8PM on May 8th for the release of R.P.K. Go show your support if you want to because it is good that some one speaks the truth for a change. What we heard over the mainstream media are nothing but lies, and reading R.P.K’s post is like a fresh air, a change of time. But the truth in those posts are questionable, just like what the mainstream medias are reporting. But I choose to believe as I think R.P.K will not post something without the backing of some evidence.

My heart goes to R.P.K and I hope he will get out of this mess in one piece, and I will pray for his release. If not, if the cronies win, more bloggers whom dare to speak the truth will be put away for a long long time.

If you want to support R.P.K. but don’t know how, here are a few things you can do:
1. If you have Facebook account, join Support Raja Petra Kamaruddin [click on the link here].
2. Join the Candle Light Vigil at Dataran Merdeka on May 8th at 8pm.
3. Donate money.

27
Apr

Your Price

By Adrian 3 Comments
Categories: about me, observation and rants and raves

I am many things, but let me say what I am not; I am not an idealist. I am not a perfectionist. What I am is a realist.

Furthermore, it is important for me to explain what I do for living. I observe people and environment for a living. Yes, I am in sales, but sales is only a profession. I need to observe people, listen to the words they said, study their body languages, in order to make a successful pitch. So I spend a lot of time studying people.

I am going to write a 3 part (or maybe 2) entries about my observation about people, or rather, human beings, after years of observation. Some of you might disagree with what I had to say, but let me be clear that this is only my opinion and the results of my observation. So if you disagree with what I got to say, feel free to rip the comment page apart.

From my observation, it is safe (for me, at least) to say that everyone has a price. Your prices differ from person, and that’s is called the perceived price. Some people might price you high, but you might be worthless to some.

The price I am talking about here is different from value. You might be very valuable, but the price might not reflect what you are valued at, and the price is not a must to be reflected in dollar sign. It can be anything, like a person, a dog, or a car.

A good example is your work. You might be valuable to the company, but you are only paid 3000 a month. So 3000 a month is your price to your boss. But do you value only 3000 a month to the company? Of course not. You might valued at 300,000 a month, but that is your value, not your price.

It applies in friendship as well. For example, when you are doing a partnership business with a friend, things might go well at first, like when the business is small. Suddenly, there is this 500,000 dollars worth of deal coming in, and your friend(s) might try different tricks to snatch the deal away to put the money into their own pocket. Now, your friend(s) price is 500,000 because that is how much you need to see his/her real colors, and that is exactly how much he/she is worth. Or how about if one day you are financially in needs, and your friend loaned you 2,000. Now, after just 2 days, this friend kept calling you, sending nasty SMS’s when you couldn’t answer his phone call because you were in meeting. So this friend is priced at 2,000, not any higher than that.

So you think the price thing is not applicable in a relationship?

Think carefully. Nothing can escape the price-valuation.

Imagine, when two person are in a relationship, everything should be beautiful. But then, one day, you decided that you don’t love this person anymore. Let me give a metaphor; if he cheated on you, you dump him. Now, the price of this relationship is his loyalty. Or how about he got fired from a job and he can’t land a job within 12 months, so he got to depend on your income. One day, you decided enough is enough, so you end the relationship. So what’s his price? His price is your salary, because you can’t share it. Or his price is his salary, because he should earn enough to sustain himself and you. Or the price is a Gucci bag, because you always wanted it and he couldn’t buy it for you since he was out of job, so you got really upset and dump him.

Or how about family, you might say. Nope, still cannot escape the price-valuation.

Look around you, how many stories have you heard about son-suing-parents or vice-versa when it comes to wealth inheritance? Or how about brother literally strangling the siblings just because of some money?

Now, you might think that someone who is filthy rich, like Bill Gates, will be exceptional case where there is no price for him. Guess what? He may be super duper filthy rich, but he still has a price. His price could be his offspring where he could forgo of his business or fortune when someone keep his son hostage, or betray his friends and family.

For some unfortunate, like those being assassinated case, the price of the person’s life is the cost of the bullet, or rather, how much the assassin is being paid.

And that’s why I said everyone has a price.

For me, I have very high price for some in my life, but for others, I am worthless. I always observe what the people around me think my price is, and when I become worthless to that person, that person will just, er.. let me try to put it in a nice phrase, “forget about me as a friend”. Sometimes they might say something sarcastic, or display a body language that is really defensive. Some said it without thinking, but from what I do for a living, I can detect the detest easily.

I won’t blame them, because I am a realist. I think about the reason, be realistic, and understand why they did certain things to me, and then I move on.

Do I hold any grudges against them?

Nope, that’s just how things are in life. There are things that we cannot change, and things do happen for a reason. So yeah, I move on, and continue my friendship with someone who still think I am worth something.

So, what’s your price?

11
Apr

Young People

By Adrian 9 Comments
Categories: about me, observation, people and rants and raves

Today I had the opportunity to visit one of the local International universities. Well, it’s work related so I dressed in shirt, working pants, and a smart tie. After the registration process at the guard station, I proceeded into the campus.

Wow! Lots of young girls around, emitting the kind of energy that is so difficult to resist, and they all look so beautiful because they are young and firm and bouncy ass instead of wrinkles and sagging breasts…

Wait, that comes out differently than what I meant.

What I am trying to say is that, when I walked into the campus, I felt like an old piece of crap. Let’s look at it this way, their average age is, say, around 20? I am one full Chinese zodiac sign away, and that’s freaking 12 years their senior. If I am really lucky, they might call me “uncle”, and if not, “grandpa”. Now, that’s not very comforting to know, isn’t it?

Anyway, what I saw (mostly girls, as you got to admit, guys like to look at girls, especially horny lonely old man like me) was that most of these girls, beside young, are energetic. Furthermore, they know how to take care of themselves, as their skin are mostly smooth (or maybe its the age), good body shape (lots of workout or simply because their metabolic rate is still at their prime at this age), and lots of laughter.

Also, what I noticed/saw was that none of them were looking at me. I mean, why would they? They have many wonderful years ahead of them, so why would they look at an old fart like me? Besides, for the sake of discussion, let’s just say that I have such a young girlfriend, she would be so energetic that she would want to go many places, whereas I would want to stay home to rest after long day of work.

Of course, that’s only wishful thinking.

Wait, I am deviating too far away from the main topic.

The conclusion is like this: I am feeling old, especially when surrounding by these young people.

update @ april 14

After talking to a friend (you know who you are, funny weird eyed woman!), I have decided to go for a change.

There is an opening for “Young and Pretty Part-Time Girlfriend” post, and here are the requirements:-

  • You must be female.
  • You must be below 23 years old.
  • You must be pretty.
  • You must be at least 5′6″
  • You must be below 50kg
  • If you are a student, apply within.
  • You must have great sense of humor.
  • You must understand “no string attached” or “not in commitment” very well until further notice of change.
  • Fresh graduates are strongly encouraged to apply.
  • Must be open minded, like “there is no such thing as no sex before marriage” kind of thing.

Now, here are the benefits that come with this position.

  • Accommodation will be provided, as long as it is my place.
  • Food will be provided (just don’t ask what kind of food).
  • Transportation will be provided, once in a while when I am free.
  • Gifts will be provided, as long as I feel like it.

If you are interested, please forward your resume with picture (a must!) to adrianang(dot)net(at)gmail(dot)com.

Thank you.

01
Apr

Sugar Mommy

By Adrian 3 Comments
Categories: Uncategorized, conversation, friends, life, observation and rants and raves

The other day, I had a conversation with a friend of mine on Google Chat. It started off something else, and then we talked about our busy working life, how she was headhunted by some professional recruiters even though she has just joined this new company for 2 months only, and how our busy working life has taken over our life and all that…

ME: “Wah lau eh! Everyday work like mad but still not earning lots of money.”

V: “Same here…”

ME: “How good it is to find a sugar mommy. I mean, when I say something is nice, BAM! She will buy it for me.”

V: “Hahaha! Don’t we all wish that?”

ME: “Ya, but most time than not, those sugar mommies are fucking ulgy, super fat, and old. It’s not easy to swallow, if you catch my drift.”

V: “HAHAHAHA! Must sacrifice! *winks*”

ME: “Hehe! True! Too bad I am not cute enough!”

V: “Hahaha! True!”

ME: “Kanneh… niamah….”

V: “HAHAHAHA!”

*    *    *   

Now, just for the sake of discussion, let’s just assume that there is a sugar mommy around. Now, imagine that when you just barely mentioned “Oh, the brand new Honda Accord is nice.” And next thing you know, a brand new Honda Accord is parked in front of your house the very next day, with your choice of color, engine specifications, and it even comes with a petrol card inside the glove compartment.

Wow…

Or how about you barely say that you are tired of this apartment of yours and wanted to look for something more decent, and again, before you know it, there was a set of keys to a prestige housing area, and the keys will lead you to a Semi-Detached home, with maids, gardens, and security alarm.

Woooow……

Now, isn’t life great if it happens this way?

But imagine again, for the sake of discussion, that this sugar mommy is most probably 60 years old with millions in the bank, while you are still in your prime age. Well, for sugar mommy, if you can make her “happy” only then you will be rewarded with those lavish gifts. Will you do it?

Or how about if the sugar mommy is someone young, like around your age, very pretty, very sweet, and again, for the sake of discussion, became your girlfriend or wife and you do love her deeply. Will you still take those gifts?

Let’s face the facts. I have met a lot of girls from rich family, and some of them are filthy rich. Let’s just assume that you have a lot of these kind of friends, and one of them you like, and then you guys became a couple. Of course, for the sake of this topic, let’s just say you are a normal working class, earning a medium salary, and she is the one with big spending power, like buying a car with cash without flinching a muscle, or buying a RM10,000 watch without thinking, so normally, she will pamper you with gifts. Will you accept those gifts?

For me, even though I don’t come from rich family, and I have to work my ass off to get to where I am today, I will firmly say that I won’t accept those gifts. Basic birthday gifts, yes, but not those super expensive stuff. I would prefer that I buy those myself.

Male ego? Nope. Chauvinist? Nope. It’s more like I like to depend on myself, earning what I can earn and spending what I can afford. What’s the use to wear a RM20,000 watch if I am only earning RM2,000 a month? What’s the use of driving a RM500,000 car if I earn only RM4,000 a month? What’s the use of living in a RM1,000,000 house if I am jobless? Nope, that is not my principles.

If I can afford a RM400,000 house, then RM400,000 house that is. If I can only afford a RM200,000 car, then RM200,000 car that is. I will work harder, earn more, and upgrade. I want to be able to take care of myself, instead of depending on others to buy me the things that I cannot afford.

But that’s just me. Feel free to rip the comment page apart.

But if you are rich, beautiful, and you want to be my sugar mommy, please apply within. I am starting to accept new applications for 2008/2009 season. Thank you.

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