Rant & Raves

What’s wrong for wanting some attention?

I mean, is it that wrong yearning for just some attention from someone I care about, especially someone whom I wished would care for me?

I have been sick since Wednesday. But I didn’t get a simple “How are you feeling?”, or “Are you alright?”, or even a simple “Have you taken your lunch/dinner?” Nope, I don’t even get a “Hi how are you?” I don’t get any of that, so how would I feel, especially coming from someone I care a lot, especially someone whom I wished would care for me?

The reason is not that those someone don’t know about it because I told those someone when I got sick, and I was expecting that those someone will just ask me how did I feel and did I go to the doctor and have I taken my lunch/dinner and stuff.

But what I do get is “Rest early okay?” when those someone knows very well that I can’t rest. I mean, its nice to say “rest early” when those someone knows the reason why I can’t rest. It’s not that I don’t try. I have been trying, for the past 4 fucking months, to rest. Whenever I sleep early, let’s say at 10pm, I will always wake up at 1 or 2am, and then I won’t be able to go back to sleep, so normally I would just sit there, do nothing, until the sun rise and go to work.

Maybe I am too demanding. Maybe I am expecting too much. Maybe I should just sit still, say nothing, expect nothing, and just do whatever I can.