I suppose this is the time of year for me to do a recap on the year or shit like that? Sorry that I am not the new year resolution kind of person. I think new year resolution is a bunch of bull crap. When you stop lying to yourself, you will stop writing new year resolution.
So here goes.
In summary, this has been a very shitty year for me. Yes, we all have our ups and downs, but for me, at least, it seemed like there were more downs than ups, and the downs can go much more lower than the highs of the ups. Yes, there are only few more days left in year 2007 and I am still experiencing the downs. Talk about shitty year eh?
For the first 10 months of year 2007, life was okay. I mean, there were quite a number of fucked ups but it was still bearable, and there were some good times as well. On the 11th months onwards, it was like downhill-all-the-fucking-way, emotionally, financially, career-wise, business-wise, physically, psychologically, mentally and anything you can think of. Now, to be honest, I can’t really think of any highlight of 2007, but I can recall all the miseries vividly, especially for the last 2 months.
Career wise, it ain’t going anywhere. It’s not going downhill, but it is not going anywhere as well. So I revamped the strategies and reworked on a few structures, so let’s hope that next year will be a better year career-wise.
Relationship wise.. Erm.. Let’s just say that I find singlehood surprisingly strange after so many years of being together with someone. Right now if someone is asking me how is the relationship, I seriously don’t know how to answer that. We are not 100% separated, but we are not together. I have since moved out from the apartment, and now, I am seriously on the look out to rent a small room or something for temporary. So if you have a spare room that you want to rent out, leave a comment and name a price and location. Best if you can throw in free internet connection.
Health/emotional/psychologically, it wasn’t good for me also. Okay, I am glad that I wasn’t hit by some major illness or cancer, but there were so much stress in life that caused me a lot of problems, health problems, and add the fact that I don’t sleep well, I don’t eat well, and I smoke more and more nowadays, so yes, health is steadily going downhill too. I get stiff neck all the time, and my shoulders are in constant pain because I couldn’t sleep well and all the stress amounting on me. Recently I lost a lot of hair, and sometimes I have a feeling that for the past 2 months, the amount of hair that I lost in one week is more than the total amount of hair lost in year 2006.
But I am grateful for one thing in year 2007; at least I am not dead, even thought sometime I just fucking wished I was and admittedly thinking about it more often than not for the past few months. But at least I am still alive, so there are still hope for me to crawl out from all these fucked ups and be a better man.
I had gone through tough shits for many years, especially in my younger years when I was in the States when I had to work 3 jobs a day to survive and I was backstabbed by my own relatives, so what is another year of tough shit? I am a survival, a warrior of life, so I can do this.
Yes, being 31 (closing on 32 at extreme speed) with not much of a career and just turned single is depressing, but I will come out of all these shits, and I will be better.
Anyway, see you in year 2008.
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