Rant & Raves

I have spent most of time this week doing self-realization, self-assesment and pondering about many things in life. Yes, it has been a dark week, and a dangerous one that is.

Thinking about the past. Planning for the future. Figuring out the current situations. Yes, its deep. Its very deep.

I have learnt a few things in life, and sometimes they can be quite disturbing. Some people say that life is like a rollercoaster; it is cruising at highspeed, and it has lots of up and down. Sometimes it will throw you a surprise curve that will scare the living hell out of you. Most importantly, the ride will stop sooner than you thought. Some people also say that life is like at the sea. Sometimes, the wind is going for you so you can go further and faster. Sometimes, the wind will blow against you, slowing you down, or worse, pushing you backward. But you won’t know which way the wind will blow. Hell, sometimes it can be still, making your life quiet, peaceful, or worse, stagnant.

I couldn’t agree more.

Another thing I have learnt during all these years is that it is best not to depend on other people. Most often than not you will be disappointed whether you like it or not. Yes, human beings are unreliable, be it someone close to you or someone you call “acquitance”. The best thing to do, if you want to avoid more disappointments, is to train yourself how to do things by your own. Nope, I am not asking you to be anti-social, but learn how to come up with ways to do things. You might be thinking that no one can do things by themselves, like fixing a broken car. Well, I am not talking about that kind of things, and I would highly recommend getting a qualified mechanics to fix your car or hire a pilot to fly the aeroplane. What I am saying is that if you are less dependent on people, the more you gain.

Of course, no one can win it all. We gain some, and we lose some. Its called Balance of Life. Some of the things are going smoothly, but some are not going anywhere, or worse, going against my will. Of course I would hope that things will go the way I wanted, but I can’t win all so I have to understand the reasons behind that, and find a way to overcome all these issues.

Compare to years back, I have learned, and I had certainly gained some. But I lost some as well. Is it worth it? Well, I cannot say for certain right now because it has yet to come to an end. But I do hope it is going to worth all the hassles and hardships that I have gone through. It is difficult to comprehend the meaning of life, and there are still lot more to learn. There’s no certainty in life, and the only certain in life, as they say, is tax and death. Well, another certain thing is that we will face failure, either huge or small, but the most important lesson behind this is that we have to get up quickly and face the next challenge, because the next one will come sooner than we’d expected. Its like a big wave sweep your feet and you fall. Get up quickly because the next wave is going to cover you and drag you to the dark blue sea if you don’t get up.

Deep? I certainly think it is. But do I make any sense? Its for you to decide.

NOTE: I am not pointing fingers at anyone at all. Its my observation and it shall remains that way.

Oh! In case I forgot… Happy Deepavali and Hari Raya to everyone.